First Day of School

The first day of school was a very emotional day for me. It actually hit me on Sunday evening as I was tucking Jordan into bed and realized he is not my baby anymore! He has grown up into a sweet little boy who is soon going to be gone all day at school with his big brothers. There is no more cuddling all morning long under the covers with him while the Disney Channel plays in the background.

I got in the shower that evening and just let the tears flow. The culmination of the surgery and the finality of never having another baby of my own with my baby starting kindergarten somehow made me crack. I couldn't hold it in or stop crying. I never had time to come to terms with it until the day was actually here. Braedyn was starting his last year at elementary in 5th, Cooper in 3rd, and Jordan in Kindergarten!

I knew it would be an emotional time for me. My kids have become my life and it's what I do everyday. They are so much a part of who I am and what am I going to do when they are not here during the day. I am sure I will eventually fill in that time with something but it's going to be quite an adjustment period. 

I am very happy my husband had the day off to help me with the first day of drop off. We got up and I was crying before we even left for the drive to school. We got our annual first day of school photos at home and then when we arrived to school. I guess someone was taking pictures for the district website because we were also on the county schools website. I was glad they got me from the side!

They all walked hand in hand into school and we dropped off the older boys first and then walked Jordan down that long walkway to the Kindergarten building. 

By the time I got to his room a couple of the teachers saw me who knew me well and I kind of lost it...Good thing Charlie was there to help Jordan get unpacked. I snapped pictures and just watched him get settled into his little chair and table from a distance and as I turned to walk out he ran over and my sweet little man gave me a big hug then I walked out with tears running down my face.  

Good thing Charlie took the keys because I may have sat in the parking lot until the end of the day. 

I picked them up at the end of the day and they had a wonderful first day and Jordan had a big smile on his face. They were all exhausted and Jordan fell asleep on the way home. Now he would have two days off and go back Thursday as it is a stagered start for their class. So Thursday was another round of emotions.