Forgiveness

I am always in awe and wonder what God puts in front of me! I am much more aware of that now then ever. I am growing in my faith as I get older and I see this happening. I also have learned to take the time to recognize it and the humbleness to know it's not because of me things happen good or bad.
A couple of times now the written word has come up at just the perfect time. You hear of these stories and you think, yeah right, until it happens to you. It is just a small nudge but you get it.
It happened in my women's bible study when I either open up to something that reflects what we are studying or open up my journal for the day to write which has verses printed on the bottom of the pages...and there it is....
I just thought the other night before I would go to bed I would read my daily devotional which has a bible verse and a story to go along with it.
It was the same night Cooper had broken the railing...It is a dated book and for that day it said,
"For if you forgive men their trespasses, your Heavenly Father will also forgive you." Matthew 6:14.
Whoa, I needed that. It had struck me because of what went on earlier in the day.
Here, I had just blasted Cooper for breaking that and being so careless and I wasn't very nice in my choice of words. I had felt bad for losing my temper and he felt bad for not listening to his mommy and daddy. So I needed to ask for forgiveness that night as I went to bed and also tell Cooper I forgive him and I know he didn't mean to do it. It was an accident and those things happen but we need to be more careful. It also reminded me in the big scheme of things it isn't that big of a deal. When I take the time to recenter myself I can find the piece of mind to deal with things that come up around here with three active, competitive, and sometimes rowdy boys. Sometimes I wonder if I still have a calm and gentle voice or did I ever.
 At bedtime, I reflect on my day and sometimes carry that mom guilt around, as do a lot of moms, and I have to just let it go and give it to him and know I am trying my best at this job he has given me. I feel some days of course are harder than others and not only am I asking for forgiveness from my children but also God.
"Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you." Ephesians 4:32